Ha, what do I want. That’s the first time i’ve been asked that question by anyone in months. You wanna know what i want? I want a text saying “hey, i’m coming over tonight and we’re gonna have a great night” from anyone, literally anyone. I want a hug, i literally don’t remember the last time i’ve gotten a hug. Not one of those friend hugs you give when you see a friend. I mean a hug that you feel embraced and you’re in someones arms and you can feel someone actually giving a shit about you. I want that kind of hug. I want to be driving around at 2am showing someone my favorite places, holding their hand. I want to take someone to my favorite river and cliff diving spots here in Lancaster and have the best day of my life, crack a few beers, take some cool pictures, get kissed. I want a fucking mother fucking goddamn kiss. I want to be kissed. I want to feel what its like getting kissed again for the first time. Probably so many butterflies. I want a text at 3am saying, i really care about you and i’d do anything to show you how much i care, what can i do? And then have them in my driveway shortly after. I want to feel wanted again, i dont think i’ve felt wanted in almost 9 months. Maybe more. I want to be taken out on a date. A proper, dress nice, someone opens the car door for me, date. I’ve never been on a proper date. I want someone who i miss so much when im not around them, or someone i want to see so badly that i drive to them in the middle of the night just to kiss them. We all know i’ve done it before… i’m infamous for driving 3 hours to see someone for 5 minutes. I want that.

I want to feel wanted and loved and cared about and i’m a needy piece of shit but what can i say. That’s what i want.

fucking this

Haircut Shenanigans!

I just scared the shit out of a lady who followed me into the bathroom. She looked at me and said something in her native language, then ran out. A moment later she came back in after realizing it was indeed a woman’s bathroom and I was in fact a girl LOL. My immediate thought was “what the hell did I do?”, then I looked in the mirror when I went to wash my hands, “oh yeah haha.”


Have you ever seen brown eyes in the sun? You don’t always notice it at first but you’ll see that ‘brown’ no longer describes them. They melt into golden rays, circling an eclipse. There’s nothing boring about brown eyes, not even when the later hours encroach; they just turn into a sunset of their own. 

(via herhardesthuetohold)

This will be my temporary guide for those who visit LA :) Here are some of my faves:

-Mexican (everywhere)
-fish - Bear Flag Co [fresh poke, fish burritos] (Newport Beach)
-fish tacos- Tacos Baja [Wednesday special] (Whittier)
-seafood - The Boiling Crab, at the beaches, China Town, etc
-pho - (Monterey Park), Golden Deli (San Gabriel)
-ramen - Daikokuya (Little Tokyo), etc
-imagawayaki [red bean cake]- Mitsuru Cafe (Little Tokyo)
-manju - Fugetsu-Do (Little Tokyo)
-chicken and waffles - Roscoe’s
-Hawaiian - Rutt’s Cafe (LA), Aloha Cafe (LA), King’s Hawaiian (Torrance), The Loft (Torrance)
-sandwiches that are not too overpriced compared to food inside Disneyland - Earl of Sandwich (Downtown Disney)
-boba - Factory Teabar (San Gabriel), Half and Half Tea Cafe

-obons/markets in Little Tokyo
-LA Zoo, OC Zoo [small but I’m bias]
-Long Beach Aquarium
-Universal Studios
-Disneyland and Downtown Disney (Anaheim)
-Knotts Berry Farm (Buena Park)
-Natural History Museum (LA)
-Santa Monica Pier
-Huntington Dog Beach
-California Science Center (LA)

(Note: seasonal waterfalls/foliage; some require purchase of parking passes)
-Griffith Observatory
-East Fork trails [many along the rivers]
-Bridge to Nowhere [about ten miles going to and from]
-Eaton Canyon [waterfall] (Pasadena)
-Sturtevant Falls [waterfall] (Sierra Madre)
-Chantry Flats (Sierra Madre)
-Schabarum Park/Powder Canyon [loop and horse stables]

Kisses and cuddles are drugs. Take with caution.